Walking in the wide open spaces of God's grace


To pick up where I left off, I spent Saturday night in Venice, Florida with a lovely couple who were hosts of a spare room that they book out as B&B style accommodation using a website called AirBnB. They kindly invited me out to dinner with them and they graciously offered to take me in their car. On the way back from dinner (with bellies overfilled with Italian), we were unfortunate to be in a car accident. We were driving on a main road, a young driver wanting to turn left onto the main road from a street that was on our right (for those back home who drive on the left – think opposite), apparently the young driver didn’t see us and failed to give way, leaving us nowhere to go but head on into the driver’s side of the other car. The airbags in the car I was in went off, causing minor injuries to my two friends in the front. The ambulance took one of them to hospital to get checked out and they were discharged later that night. I was sitting in the back so thankfully I came out unscathed. Unfortunately both cars were badly damaged and had to be towed away. But, I got to see the whole works – police, firies, ambulance, flashing lights and one very serious looking state trooper with a very serious hat (did I mention he was serious?).

The massage at the Warm Mineral Springs the next day came at a good time. It was nice to be able to unwind after the events from the night before. Even if I was the youngest person there swimming in the fountain of youth.

I’m now in Tampa, Florida attending the 5-day Healing Week at Ellel Ministries. It’s only been 2 days and God is already drawing out emotions from deep within. It’s been unexpectedly uncomfortable. I suppose transformation is not meant to be comfortable. I think back to my time of transformation before I found faith last year – it was not a time where I felt warm and fuzzy. There were tears and emotions coming to the surface that I didn’t understand, frustrations and new beliefs that I struggled to accept. Thankfully then I had Cam holding my hand walking me through every step of the way. Now I have to learn to lean on God every step of the way. It’s a valuable lesson but it’s not easy when you’re confronted with pain you didn’t realise was in your heart. I’m learning more and more that he’s a gentle God and He sets a pace for inner healing that’s just right for us, and it’s not an overnight process.

Opening it up to y’all now: What have you experienced during times of transformation and inner healing?


4 responses

  1. Sarah M

    Dude, times of transformation for me have usually entailed a truckload of crying! It’s a bit like pulling out a rotten tooth with no anesthetic, hurts like hell, but definitely worth it in the long-run. Praying for you during this time xx

    3 May 2012 at 3:22 pm

    • Ash

      Thanks Sarah. It is definitely worth it! So blessed to be on this journey and have this opportunity. I miss you heaps! Hope you’re well xx

      5 May 2012 at 11:09 am

  2. Malinda

    Deep honesty with God and with myself is excruciating at times ,I have discovered. At the same time it can bring healing and transformation. Ash,it was truly inspiring to cross paths with you this week at Ellel. Truly,God is bringing beauty out of ashes.

    6 May 2012 at 10:04 am

    • Ash

      Hey Malinda. It was so lovely to meet you in Tampa. I wish I’d had more time to get to know you. Thanks for your words of wisdom – so true! I hope you’re doing well. Love & hugs xx

      19 May 2012 at 9:39 pm

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